chillin
well the guys are in the living room playin on my x-box…yes i said MY x-box. austin bought me one for chirstmas. im in the computer room trying to find shit to do. so here i sit.
i am finally off of my depo shot…startin to get my personality back instead of being so kind of fucking zombie all of the time not really having any feelings. now im startin to see the old tilynn jump back into the picture. its nice to be able to cry and laugh and actually feel those emotions again. I dont just sit around anymore and just be a big blob that never says anything or has absolutely no opinion ….now i actually talk back and i am sarcastic again. its weird what fucking chemicals do to a person.
im kinda tired…
my job that is only supposed to be a regular part time thing has some how turned into a full time thing without me realizing it, most people would think that is a good thing but i didnt really want to go back to work full time…i just wanted to make a little extra money so we could pay off some bills and have some extra money to go and do things. the shitty part is im always working so much that i cant go and do anything cuz there is no time on my tow days off. on those days i have to fucking clean the house and run errands, like grocery shopping and paying bills. the rest of the time i dont have any energy to get off of the couch. what kind of shit is that.
i miss my friends…what friends that i did have. im with austin when he said that he misses back home. i wish sometimes that i was back in florida chillin at his moms house dealin with the family.
lance is comming back tonight from texas and laura will be home in a couple of days…at least then things wont be so boring.
im done bitching for right now.
