Purpose
I am so excited! I finally figured out what I want to be when i grow up. hehehe. I want to get my BS in English. (Yes, I know that my spelling and grammar are horrendous, but that is what college was created for.)I want to major in English and minor in art history or maybe some kind of language. Hopefully one day I want to get my Masters and eventually my doctrine in English and all the while be a best selling author.
I have had so many different interests and I wanted to do so many things but then when i look at the course description and looked at all of the classes there was always a part of me that was like shit, I could do some of this but fuck the rest, there is just no way.
Last night I was looking at some of the majors and minors that are offered for UMUC and they all had way too much math. That is when I spotted the English. It only has one math requirement, Math 105, or 106, it’s my dreams come true. The only thing I am stumped on is why do I need math for an English major, for that matter why do I need a biology class for a math major? Those are the only two classes that just don’t make any sense at all.
Oh well, I am just glad that I finally have something to look forward to now.
dreams
Sometimes I hate being on my period. I have the craziest dreams. Take for example last night. I dreamed that I was single and I was trying to get my friend Teeter to like me. We kissed and in my dream I thought that I had made a mistake. So I get up and walk off to go take a shower and calm down. He just sits there on the couch. I am in the shower naked all freaking out, sitting Indian style and leaned over in the bottom of the tub.
The next thing I know, like I am watching from above he enters the bathroom and closes the door. He pulls back the curtain but I don’t hear him. He starts gently running his fingertips along my right side. starting from my shoulder down toward my bum. I meantime am waiting to see what happens from there. He takes his other hand and reaches down to make me sit up. As I do he shuts the water off. He helps me stand up and I look into his eyes as he holds the towel out for me and ask him what changed his mind?
“I was shocked. I didn’t know what to think or do.” he said as he wrapped the towel around me. Keeping his hands in the small of my back he leaned in close to me and whispered in my ear, ” I have been waiting a long time for you.” Then he let the towel drop to the floor. We were embracing and started kissing. It was all really romantic, the steam from the shower and his bare chest all dark tanned and muscles. In my dream I could feel his scars from the accident.
After we were finished we laid in bed and this big huge black tarantula came crawling up on to my leg. I froze and told john to get it off. He looked down and said for me to be still cuz this one wasn’t his and he didn’t know where it came from. He put it in a cage with his other one that was really small and we were trying to get him to eat but he just kept attacking john’s other spider. So I, yes me, I started to move the big harry black one out into its own cage. I was watching it drink some water and then I turned to see some horses ride up and my hand was too close to the spider cuz it had me in its grasp and I was frozen. I could feel the paralyzing venom all over me. It was burning and stinging all over. It was so vivid in my dream all of the sensations from the spider attack, it was like I focused in on that part. He got it off of me and I collapsed into his arms. He was freaking out, holding me and running his hands through my hair he said, “I just got you, I don’t know what I would do if I lost you now.”
Somehow or another my dream shifted to one of vampire bats. Only in my dream they were these small little fairy’s that had bat wings. There was one that was poisonous and another one that wasnt. they both needed some blood to stay alive. I cut a small spot on my finger and let them both feed from me.
I was then told to go and pawn some old dolls and get some money cuz we had to fight a war.
I ended up getting the money by swindling the old fart who owned the pawn shop. As I was on my way back to John’s house I was awakened by Lili.
So after all of that the things that stuck out the most to me in my dream(Aside from sleeping with one of my longtime friends.) were the spiders and the bat-fairies. I lost my dream book so I cant look up the spiders and find out what they mean. Maybe I can do some kind of dream symbolism search on the web and it can tell me.
fucking zyrtec
I am sick. I cant stand japan anymore. I want to go back to Florida where i don’t have to take zyrtec or singular or any of the other medications i am on cuz of this freaking place. i want to be medication free and not get sick just cuz i forget one pill for 8 hours.
See that is what I did. I forgot to take my zyrtec one morning cuz i was busy cleaning and cooking and all of that other crap that i do, by the time that i realized i hadn’t taken my zyrtec it was like 6 or 7 at night. by then it was too late the damage was done. now i have a sinus infection or lili’s cold that she had I’m not sure which and i feel like i was drowned in a toilet and then beat and made to swallow a three week old eaten corn cob. peachy.
I cant sleep cuz if i lay down i start to cough and my nose either clogs on one side and runs on the other or just clogs completely. my husband is mad at me cuz i wont go and lay down with him in the bedroom. and cuz I’m too sick for sex. boo-hoo. My teeth hurt and are all fuzzy from all of the cough drops that i have eaten. I have brushed my teeth three times today and it does nothing. So gross.
So yeah Scheller land is just so wonderful right now i can hardly contain myself.
note to self
I didn’t want to put this on my bookmark list cuz it is way too long, so I am putting the link info here to remind myself I need more underwear. To the few who do view this page yes, I know that it is a motherhood maternity website but these are the most comfy undies in the world.
http://www.motherhood.com/Product.asp?product_Id=20311568
http://www.motherhood.com/Product.asp?product_Id=55131568#
http://www.motherhood.com/Product.asp?product_Id=64601568
http://www.motherhood.com/Product.asp?product_Id=86881568
new vamps
Oh my goddess!!
CiCi gave me these two books to borrow about vampires. When she was talking about them I was thinking in my head whatever is just some new crappy vampire series. blah. When she brought over the book I was bored and decided I would read a little bit. I guess that is all it took cuz I read the whole book in two days. Its like a 500 page book. I didn’t even read the new harry potter book so fast. When I found out that it was a series and she had the other two books I was over the top exploding with joy. Honestly I am like the hugest fan Ever of anne rice and her books but this series is totally awesome in a different way. Its like holy shit if i was going to write about vampires and werewolves this is how i would do it. its a modern day love story, told from a teenagers perspective. I read the second book in two days too. I couldn’t put it down. Now I am waiting on the third book but if CiCi isn’t done with it today then i’m just going to the bx to buy it. I so can’t wait.
Orange mess
I love children. Expecially my lovely daughter. I was laying on the couch today, the next thing I know lili is shoving a dirty diaper in my face saying “eeewwwwww!!” I take the diaper away and then next thing I notice she has her foot stuck up in the air and covered in nasty orange poo.
Then I had to steam clean the living room. So much fun.
